Not exactly weight loss food

January 31, 2009

Just ate a cup of full fat unsweetened Greek style yogurt with peanut butter (natural style, no sugar added). Anti-paleo foods both, but full fat dairy is supposedly good for fertility levels (and yogurt has beneficial bacteria…or so they say). The peanut butter was for flavor.

Just read “The Sugar Fix,” which poses some interesting hypotheses about fructose, but still hasn’t convinced me that glucose and starch are entirely harmless. It’s entirely possible that grains are harmful for reasons having nothing to do with their carbohydrate content (reasons such as gluten, allergens, and anti-nutrients). Natural unprocessed tubers are probably fine. Maybe I’ll try a day of low fat, high potato-content to see if it helps my leptin levels. Gah.

Dinner was some ground chuck, a salad with olive oil, and two glasses of white wine. Breakfast was two eggs scrambled in olive oil with a tsp of butter, and a cup of broccoli with a 1/4 cup of tinned organic tomatoes on a bed of shredded cabbage. Two dried prunes as a snack.

Went up a phase in the TT bodyweight workouts. I usually have no problem with the majority of the exercises, but then one or two will completely kick my duff for two weeks or so. Siff squats. Hands on the ball pushups. 1-legged squats. Of course, I have never been able to do chinups or pullups, but I got a late start even trying, being a girl and all. I might be getting better, though. There’s hope for me yet!


January 29, 2009


  • Coffee with a tbsp of coconut milk
  • 2 boiled eggs
  • 1/2 cup cantalope & 5 red grapes


  • 3 ounces canned wild salmon
  • 1 tsp pumpkin seed oil
  • 2 tsp olive oil
  • 1 tbsp balsamic vinegar
  • 1 cup frozen asparagus & string beans (thawed)
  • 1/4 cup  walnuts
  • Coffee with 2 tbsp of coconut milk

But aren’t we descended from apes?

January 29, 2009

 There are no more monkey bars or jungle gyms in any of the neighborhood playgrounds. Gone are the days of climbing to the top and balancing without handholds! The only real monkey bars I have witnessed lately are in Harlem (a bit of an inconvenient commute), because, I suppose, no one cares if Harlem residents break their bones.

ALTERNATIVELY, we might only care enough about Harlem residents to give them practical fitness and training environments (the “Die, yuppie scum” scenario). The only things left for Riverdale children (and me) to climb are fences and trees, and I have a feeling that it would be illegal.

Yesterday’s Menu:


  • Coffee with a tbsp of coconut milk
  • 2 boiled eggs
  • 1 empire apple


  • 1 orange pepper
  • 1 serrano chili
  • 2 ounces crab meat
  • 1 tbsp olive oil
  • 1 tbsp balsamic vinegar
  • .5 cup frozen mixed berries (blue, rasp, black)
  • Coffee with 2 tbsp of coconut milk


  • 7 ounces grilled shrimp
  • 1/2 cup (?) sauteed onions andpeppers
  •  1/2 cup (?) guacamole
  • 1 tbsp sour cream
  • 5 ounces cabernet 

Worked with weights and interval training yesterday, but I  feel I’m losing my focus.  I still feel weirdly hydrated, yet disturbingly flabby.  But I’m still warmer, and my skin is less papery.  So…it’s a draw?

Still not fertile.

Observations/Staying the course

January 28, 2009

Felt soft and fat after yesterday’s meals, which consisted of the following:


  • Coffee with a tbsp of coconut milk
  • 1 ounce “raw” almonds
  • 1 pear


  • 1.5 cups frozen broccoli (thawed)
  • .25 cup organic tinned tomatoes
  • Tin of sardines in olive oil
  • .5 cup frozen unsweetened berries (blue, rasp, black)
  • Coffee with a tbsp of coconut milk


  • Romaine, tomato, and sliced onion salad (with a sprinkling of feta, vinegar, and 1 tbsp olive oil)
  • 2 chicken thighs (baked and skinless – that’s just how they came!)
  • ½ acorn squash with 1.5 tbsp butter
  • ¼ cup “raw” pecans & hazelnuts

Weirdly, when I weighed myself this morning (it’s been a week), I was down 2 lbs and 1% of body fat (according to the Tanita scale, which is an imperfect method, but the only one readily available to me).  I was all set to renounce both breakfast and pears, but maybe I’ll just stay the course for now and do a brief (16 hour) fast on Friday.

I also feel weirdly hydrated despite no increase in fluids consumed.  When I put coconut milk in my coffee, I drink less coffee.  More calories, more fat, but less coffee. 

Still not fertile.

Uh…OCE much?

January 26, 2009

Worked out – pushups, assisted pullups, leg presses, leg curls, leg extensions, stability ball jackknifes, and brief sprint intervals on the treadmill after a 20 hour fast.

I definitely did feel weaker exercising in a fasted state. I couldn’t do as many assisted pullups this week as last week and had to switch to dumbbell rows. Also I was cold (okay, em-effing freezing) all day. If you are looking for the silent evidence, I am she.

I feel like the increased amount of fruit the past few days (I have an actual purpose in eating more fruit; I’m trying to elevate leptin to make myself fertile again – hey, I’m only 32!) just made me softer and fatter. But my legs look thinner. Either that cup of berries induced an insulin surge that caused me to both store fat and cannibalize lean muscle tissue, or I just depleted some of the glycogen that was stored in my quads.

Had a pretty good dinner: salad with a tablespoon of olive oil, about 5 ounces of lean pot roast (I wanted more, but that’s all I could get!), some pan fried peppers and onions, and a handful of walnuts (12 walnut halves). Later, some unsweetened cocoa powder, two tablespoons of coconut milk (the yogurt experiment FAILED, by the way), and 2 ounces of red wine.

Too much food? Probably. I don’t get really hungry when I IF, but I get so, so cold. At least I’m warm now.

I wonder if eating breakfast tomorrow would be a bad move for weight loss, or if it would actually help.

Maybe a late breakfast or brunch, some almonds and a pear? I need to buy more meat, but I think I have a tin of sardines in olive oil that would do for lunch.

And beef…will be what’s for dinner

January 25, 2009


  • 4 strips organic uncured bacon
  • 2 eggs scrambled in said bacon’s fat
  • 1/2 cup frozen broccoli
  • 1/4 cup organic tinned tomatoes
  • 2 cups of coffee with 4 teaspoons of heavy cream.


  • 1/3 cup raw, lacto-fermented sauerkraut (kimchee & curry flavor)
  • 1/4 a sliced chayote (or chocho) fruit
  • 3/4 cup frozen blueberries & strawberries
  • 5 cashew nuts.  Just 5.
  • hot chocolate (2 teaspoons unsweetened cocoa powder with pumpkin pie spice & cayenne pepper mixed with water)

Back! To the Kitchen

January 25, 2009

There are three thoughts standing in the way of my going dairy free:

  1. The recent studies in which women who ate more full fat dairy had higher measures of fertility than those who consumed low or nonfat dairy…I’m not sure about the fertility measures of women who consumed an equivalent amount of fat from non-dairy sources (or what those non-dairy sources would be). Obviously, there could be an unidentified nutrient/nutrient group specific to dairy fat (D3? K2? Other?) that comes into play, but who knows? (I’m not lactose intolerant even though I do come from Asian stock. Maybe because I was adopted as an infant and fed milk continuously from a very early age. No way to test this. Do the benefits of, say, full fat unsweetened yogurt outweigh the possible costs? Do I, personally, suffer from any of these adverse reactions without knowing it?)
  2. All the hype surrounding the probiotics in yogurt
  3. I do like a teaspoon of coconut milk in my coffee in lieu of cream. However, every time I open a can of coconut milk for this purpose, at a good deal of the contents eventually go bad before I can finish the can. So I buy cream instead, as it seems to last longer. (Should this immediately make me suspicious?)

With this in mind, I’m going to take today to attempt to make some coconut milk yogurt. That way, I get some non-dairy fat and probiotics, and I can set aside a few teaspoons of coconut milk expressly for use in coffee and use them before they have a chance to go rancid.

I’m a bit gunshy, because I have failed this recipe before.